D R E A M S

This morning, for the first time, my recurrent secret dream environment was compromised. For a very long time now, I've had this house/apartment building/schoool where there were a number of secret passages that I could use to get around the building undetected. One of the secret passages is merely going through to a sub-basement and through to another door that's merely forgotten, not so secret. This morning, that sub-basement was populated by three kids in their late teens, I'd say. In this particular dream I was running from something/someone. It's unclear to me what/who it was. I was using the sub-basement route and encountered the three kids. I was flabbergasted. I had been sort of running through and they formed a loose line to block my path. I tried to do a little pick-and-roll maneuver, but they intercepted me just the same. I wasn't really afraid of them, just sort of surprised by their presence and also merely intent on getting away from whatever was chasing me. In any event, they let me go for some reason. I later went through there again and there were just two boys. This time, they sort of looked alarmed and we become conspiratorial. As though from whatever I'd been fleeing had become a common threat. We whispered something. I realized that I couldn't remember the way back to my apartment (like the hallway from House of Leaves, this space somehow seemed to be morphing. Anyway, I finally find my way up to a top floor and feel like I've found my apartment, but it turns out to be someone else's. After waking, I had the distinct impression that it may have been my friend Jeff's but it is unclear.

I feel like there is some relationship between this secret space that I've had for such a long time and my sense of youthfulness. I think the fact that it was compromised is somehow an indication that my subconscious self is losing sight of my youth, or something like that. I'd definitely felt like I'd lost something when there were those kids in my space.

Brian posted at 9:38 AM.